Just ME!’s blog

So a lot of things have been going on in the past week. For starters I got a job I havent worked in 6 months and its very tiring. The good 2thing about having a job is now I have my own money and now I can go out with out asking my parents for the money. The bad apart about having a job now I really have to make a schedule and plan everything out ahead of time so I will have time for my school work. So hopefully all goes well.

So I am just sitting waitin gfor everyone to finish up their work withe the statement of purpose and design plan work sheet. Since I forgot to bring it with me I have to sit here patiently its pretty boring and this boy keeps looking at what I am saying. Moving on I feel kind of tired and I am ready to go home and just sleep. Today is going to be a very long day I have alot of homework to do and I have to write a rough draft for the essay that is due in this class. Hopefully I will finish everything that I have to do in enough time.

Have you ever felt lost in your own skin? Well today was one of those days I had one of those horrible mornings. At first everything started out fine my friend came to see me then I got the phone call that would ruin everything. So one of my exes called me who I havent spoken to in almost a year and he gave me news that i really didnt feel like hearing at the time. So me and my ex really dont talk that much any more because of our situation but we both know that we still love eachother. Make a long story short I found out that he was seeing someone else for almost a year and completely lied to me when I asked him multiple times about her. Of course he lied the last person on earth who I thought would lie to me but hey I guess things happen for a reason.

So this morning I decided to drop my history class it became too much of an overload. I thought to myself i'd rather drop this class now than later on regret it for not passing. I plan to take it next year or during the summer. Hopefully I made the right decision. The problem is now I have no room to fail any classes because I have exactly 12 credits. So I wish myself good luck to this semester.

Last week in my acting class I realized a variety of things about life. For instance my professor had us do this activity with a partner and only one person could speak. After doing this activity I realized that as human beings we thrive off of feed back from other people. We like to here responses because when we dont hear anyhting back we automatically assume the person doesnt hear us or they doqnt understand. I took this idea and tried it with one of my friends and she easily got irritated that I did not respond to what she was saying. She assumed that I was ignoring her when in all acutuality I was seeing if she realized that I didnt say one word. So believe it or not we as humans like the attention and want to hear what other people have to say.

So thanksgiving is supposed to be a day when families are to join together and be thankful for haveing eachother. Well my thanksgiving didnt go quite like that everything went wrong and basically a lot of food went to waste and people were feeling very emotional. Well some of us finally got our thoghts together and tried to forget what happened earlier in the day. So this thanksgiving has changed my views on a lot of things and there are just soooooo many buttons one may beable to push until the next person has had enough.

This has been yet another bad week so i no longer have my car someone hit me and there is nothing I can do about it. Again everything is starting to become so confusing because now everything seems like it is due at the same time. So stress is being a major part of my life again. Now I have to start working because there are so many expenses that I have so I will never have time for myself any more. I'll either be at work, school or doing something that involves school. So now I have to try and work out a better schedule and reduce the extra stress that I dont need and hopefully this plan will work.

So today was one of the worse mornings. Starting with I wasnt able to register for my classes and most of them are almost full so lord knows if they are going to be filled to capacity once I register. Then I come to school and park in a parking lot that usually dont park in and i get a ticket that sucks big time. For th simple fact that I just got a ticket 2 months ago and i'm not sure yet if they will give me points or not. I wont find out until I go to court and this tiqcket on top of that one my insurance is going to be sky rocket because I already have 3 points on my license so whose to tell how much it will be. Most likely my car will probably get taking away because I dont have a job so I dont pay for everything my mom does and she does not have time for this nonsense. And to top everything off I had a exam today and I believe I failed that this is not my day I cant wait for it to be over.

So I am starting to get use to this whole college life. As I said before things seemed to be so hectic because of everything that has been happening to me but now its seems like everything is going back to normal. First and foremost I have discovered a new way to manage my time and realize when I just need to make time for myself and relax. Since I was trying to do everything at once and catch up on everything thats when I realized that it couldnt work like that I actually had to take my time. Life is all about time and you just need to learn how to manage it because once you do that everything else will fall right into place.

For the past two weeks I have been going through alot from school to personal thwings that are happening in my life and it just seems like I cant get a grasp on everyhting. When I think i'm getting ahead im really falling behind two steps. Its too much going on people say learn how to manage your time better I try to set away space for certain things that I know I have to do.  Then out of no where something else pops up and I cant take it trying to get ahead is very difficult when you cant even figure out how to move on from something. Hopefully it all comes together because this whole stressing thing is driving me nuts I honestly can say I have no idea what to do.